So the question of "Why Am I an Idiot" stands. I'm sure I'm not alone in the self destructive behavior and I know that are far worse consequences for other people. Since I can be so disciplined at getting in my running and workouts, I don't understand why I cannot be more disciplined in other things. This is especially true of the sleep problem as it likely prevents me form improving in my running as much as I could be and affects my productively throughout the day. Any ideas?
So my piss-poor attitude continued throughout the day as I continued to sabotage my entire day. My run home was crap. I had no desire or energy to do it whatsoever, but since I had no way of getting home, I had to do it. I took a shorter way home and did not do any speed. It took all my energy to keep myself running in order to get home. Then I got home and pigged out and drank.
I think this day would have been way better had I decided to stay in bed this morning and not get up until Friday. What a waste!
- 1/4 serving N-Large with 4 oz Skim Milk
- 2 bowls Cinnamon Oatmeal Crunch Cereal with ~10 oz Skim Milk
- 2 slices Pepperoni Pizza, Thin Crust
- Milky Way
- Doritos and Salsa
- Chicken Breast, White Potatoes, Green Beans
- Pita Chips and Hummus
- 128 oz Water
- 42 oz Coffee
- 24 oz Diet Dr. Pepper
- 24 oz Down Town Brown
- 1 large glass Wine